Wednesday, January 23, 2008
It's funny sometimes how things happen. As many of you know I'm a Hospice Nurse. (yeah I know Dae, state the obvious...profile says it! d'oh?)
In addition I design in SecondLife and am a Flickr addict. I'm a new Photoshop user, and figure I can say that until I've been at it for at least 20 years.... Well,not really, I picked up Photoshop about a year and a half ago for the first time....so I classify that as new. (My blog! My Definitions! Hah!)
In any event, the past weeks have brought a promotion at work. With this promotion have come many headaches, as well as some good things. (Still trying to list those "goodies" and so far the list is about 1 word long but 'brought some good thing' just didn't sound right). I've competed in the SLArtist Idol competition, and also been preparing for a featured artist spot.
What I'm saying is that the caption says it all to me- I was blind in so many ways. While I thought I had priorities straight: compete, produce, work without taking any time off, meet deadlines, do, do, do- I really didn't. I lost my wish and desire to 'make stuff'- I lost my energy to be anything because I was so wrapped up in other people's expectations and goals. My creativity was externally driven, and not internally.
Blindsighted says so much to me- She is a guardian, yet she has no sight. She relies on her other senses to protect, to win, and yes, she can kick your arse. In looking deeper she is so much more because she is trusting of her inner sense. She relys on that inner sense to guide each and every action. While blind, she hasn't lost sight of who she is. She has internal direction and sight.
In the past weeks, I lost sight of myself and my family. I became deadlines to please other people. So what is important? Family and friends of course, are the first of all. Work goals are a must since living under a bridge and eating honeybuns is not exactly my ultimate goal in life. But after that....it is up to me. I don't want to lose my internal sense of direction, creativity and be prey to others for direction.